I'm not perfect.

I don't know if it's a thing every parent does, or if its just mine, but they want me to be perfect. I have average grades, normally and do try hard in school. They just expect me to have the best grades. They keep going on about my older brothers grades and it got to me. I had a science test and deliberately did badly.

I know it wasn't smart but I can't stand people or my family thinking I'm really smart, because I'm not. I don't want to have to live up to people's expectations, I just want to live up to my own. I got an E on that test. It made me laugh. I am now forced to attend extra science lessons and a phone call was made home.

I never understood how that was a punishment. It's a phone all home, I would be more annoyed by a detention. It's stupid.

Amazing Phil and Dan is not on fire

They must be the funniest people know to man kind. I love them so much, I even put some of their hilarious quotes on my bedroom wall. I know I'm a cool kid. I do love them and I think Phil is super hot, I would date him, he's just perfect. I always read things online about them being bi but to be honest it doesn't bother me. I mean I've had my fair share of bisexual experiences, some that I can remember better then others because of the intoxication. Incase you don't know who Phil and Dan are, here is a picture.

They are youtubers and they are super funny. My favourite one of their videos has to be the Christmas cookie making one. After I watched it, I had a stomach ache from laughing so hard. So anyways that's that. Bye

Silly things

Have you ever done anything stupid just for the sake of being stupid? I do it all the time and I have such a fun life, because I don't care about what people think. I know what it's like not having any confidence and it just wasn't the life for me. I love being the loud outgoing one in the group but people don't like me for it. I'm not bothered if people don't like me, it's their choice and if the don't like me, it's probably because I stated my opinion. 

 This was something silly me and my friend Millie did, when it was the cool thing to put pictures of your 6 packs on Facebook. We go picked on in school for it, but we didn't care. It was one of the funniest days of my life. I miss Millie, she moved away and I miss her, but that wasn't the point of this blog.

The point of this blog was to tell people to not get scared because although people act like they are a big part of your life, you can still do what you want in life, just don't get scared.

I hate people!

It's not every person I hate, just the really stupid ones, or the ones that are really annoying, or the ones that are horrible, or the ones that try and be someone they're not. Being 15 and in public school, I encounter them every day. I admit I have a problem and I lose my temper way to quickly but people need to learn to stop pissing me off.

So about three years ago, I was going through a very punk stage in my life and my favourite band happened to be slipknot. Don't know who they are? Google them. So I had a t shirt, but because I wore it in public I became and emo. It was bad for me, I didn't care about being called an emo, I just hated what it escalated in.

So because I listened to this band I cut myself... I didn't but I was told I did. Apparently I tried to kill myself every day because I was an 'attention whore' which was completely untrue. Worse then that, I was told that I murder animal and sacrifice them. I don't know what they thought an emo was, but I wasn't some weird Tribal thing.

I was bullied so bad, until I met my current group of friends, they were the same as me, rejected from every other social group and I love them. I had friends now and I learned to ignore the chaos until they got bored. If you ever get bullied, just ignore them, it takes a while, but they give up eventually.

Follow me on twitter @emmaallington97 and I will talk to you soon. Bye

Parents

I think that some people shouldn't of had children, what's the point when they see it as more of a chore then wanting to do it? I feel sorry for the child as well, that poor kid must feel rejected and lonely. People should think about having kids and the child's life before the actually do it.

As I was growing up, I had the most supportive parents, I mean, my mum is my best friend, I can tell her anything, my dad will help me reach the goals I set myself even if they are ridiculous, so it's hard to imagine what life would be like if my parents just didn't care. My mum and dad have some friends that seem like they don't care about their child, infant they were in Italy over Christmas and flew back on Boxing Day, they then took their child straight to her grandma's house and left her there for over a week. Why? When this child eventually came home, she finally received her presents Santa left her.

I feel sorry for this little girl, she must feel like Santa didn't care enough to bring her the presents on time. It also annoys me because Christmas is time to spend with your family and they just dumped her at her grandma's and went home. If my parents ever did that to me I know it would hurt so much. What was the point in them even having their child.?

Something else that annoys me is that they enrole their child into extra curriculum activities and then expect other people to take her to them because they are working. I take her to the swimming classes she goes to every Wednesday after picking her up from French club. I know they work in London but they do have to option of working from home so why don't they take it? It would certainly open up more opportunities to spend with their only child.

Email me at emmaallington@icloud.com to let me know what you think. Bye.

Facebook famous

We all know those people that have 12345667990 billion friends on Facebook and people refer to them as being Facebook famous. This frustrates me for many reasons, the first one being they probably only know two people on their friends list and they just like to look popular, the second one being they do the most attenetion seeking things and then complain when people give them grief for it and my third reason is that even though I chose not to be their friend on Facebook, they still manage to find a way onto my newsfeed and piss me off.

I used to think that being Facebook famous might help me get somewhere because people would already know my name. It didn't work. I never got a random inbox from a casting director saying 'hey, you're pretty, be in my movie?', or anything interesting along those lines. I don't know if this is because I only ever managed to get just over five hundred friends or because any inbox like that would probably come from a pervert.

Anyway, there is this one boy one Facebook that seems to be on everyone's friend list, but everyone hates him, so I don't know why they are friends with him, I meant its not hard to unfriend someone. This boy also frustrates me because if he has a friend on Facebook and they do something he doesn't like, he blocks them. He doesn't even know them, I mean I would only block someone if  they were giving me constant grief or they were a super spammer but seriously, half the worlds population must be on his block list.

Now for those few people that might be reading this, I am sorry for complaining about the Facebook website, I do use it everyday, if I didn't have Facebook there would be some people I am very close to I would not be able to talk to. Thank you for reading, it's nice knowing that people might find my writing slightly interesting. I will no doubt write again soon. Bye

Hi, to those who are a bit silly and didn't realise, I'm Emma, but most people call me Em. I do think I'm a normal teenager but apparently the kids at school don't. I don't know weather it's my friend group that intimidates them, or it may be my music taste. I'm fifteen, so I don't want creepers reading about me, but it doesn't really bother me. I do have a boyfriend, he's a bit strange, but I do like him a lot. So this was a brief introduction to my blog, if you don't like it, don't read it, or you can continue to read it and bitch about it to your mates later. I don't care what you do, it's your life... Not mine.

Honestly, the real reason I started this blog was to let people know my goals in life and how I will achieve them, though I doubt anyone cares. I want to act, I know what you're thinking 'you should pick a real goal in life, not one that is virtually impossible'. Well I think I can do it, my dad and mum think I can do it, there isn't any reason why I shouldn't achieve. I mean #YOLO, might as well do what you love. Okay that #YOLO was meant to be sarcastic, I would never actually say that, I wouldn't be able to live with the humiliation.

'So Emma, how do you plan to reach this goal?'. Well unlike most other teenagers, I have a plan to reach my goal. It was my dads idea originally. I've always wanted to act, well not always, but since I was about 9. At that innocent age I started a drama group. I joined because I was a shy child and wanted more confidence, and then realised I loved acting, being on stage is one of my favourite things. So, New Year's Eve, I went out for dinner with my mum, dad and little brother, when my dad told me he believed in me, he said if we do research, and my in the time, my career choice is reachable. 2013 was the year I was going to do something with my life. I don't know that exact plan yet but my dad seems pretty certain and I believe in him... He would do anything to make me happy.

The way I've been writing in this blog makes it seem like I'm a snobby little rich bitch, but I'm not. I mean I don't come from a poor family but I certainly do not come from a rich one. No, I come from a happy little middle class family, and I love them all, well most of them. I love everyone, except my cousins, I like them the correct amount you're meant to love your cousins, but if I had a choice, I would never speak to them again... They do their best to make me sad, they're twins so its like 'hey, there's two of us, we can make Emma feel doubly as crap as one of us alone would'. I don't know if its because I'm the only girl out of the six grandchildren or if its because I used to cry at the smallest things when I was younger. Anyway whenever they see me, they try to make me sad, but  learned to push their buttons so it doesn't matter anymore.

Moving onto another topic, I have two idols, I know it's greedy and weird because neither of them are female like moi, but I love Tim Minchin, he is just so talented and smart and its hard to find musicians that don't have to add extra syllables into words to make them rhyme. My other idol is Noel Clark, he is also very talented and probably more relatable to me because  I want to act and I would mind directing and writing like him. He is just an amazing person, to have all that to do and then to have kids as well, it just makes me happy knowing I can look up to him and say 'I will do that one day'.

So I will end this blog post here because I don't want it to be super duper long and for anyone reading this to get bored but yeah, there's a lot more to follow this.