Growing up

Over the last seven months I have been blogging I have noticed a lot about myself change. It may just be because I have had different events and circumstances happen, or it may be because I have actually grown up. This year has been extremely eventful for example I got out of my first serious relationship, which if had to be mature about, I went on my first girls holiday with no adults so I had to be mature about that but most importantly I realised my age.

When I started this blog at the tender age of fifteen I wanted to be an actor and for fill all of my dreams. Whilst I would like that to happen, there is about a 90% chance that it will not happen. I think turning 16 helped me realise this.

As great as my sixteenth birthday celebrations we, I soon came to realise that I was growing up and did have to start being more mature and taking responsibility for my own actions. This then bought me to realise I wasn't going to reach my dreams and that is okay. In life you don't always get what you want but it doesn't matter. Well it doesn't to me at least. I am an insignificant piece of carbon and my life is unimportant. That doesn't mean I don't want to enjoy it, it just means I know I don't matter.

The 6 weeks holiday

I understand that children and teenagers need a break from school, but I may be the only teenager that thinks the six weeks is too long. The reason for this being that if work is not done regularly than we forget things. As I'm sure you can imagine, teachers do some homework for the course of the six weeks, but almost all teenagers will leave it until the last minute.
I have been very bored over the last five and a half weeks and genuinely think that we should have two weeks off every six weeks to stop it. The boredom normally sets in after that amount of time for me and I am ready to go back to school. I had a maths booklet to complete over the summer and like many of my peers, it seems rather difficult. This my be because the teachers are trying to challenge us or it may be because we have forgotten due to the brain not being as active.
Let me know your views and sorry for not blogging in a while, I forgot the password xoxox

Fan girl moments

So recently I have be some obsessed with the guy whose user name on everything is OhNickel.

http://youtu.be/4tnUlMhX3hQ


This is him, the link olive is his music video.

This man is such a good story teller, he is really funny and seems to live a very interesting full life. I found him when I was waiting for someone to do a younow live show and stumbled across this man playing the ukelalee. OMG I genuinely think I fell in love with him, like we were meant to be soul mates, or it was love at first sight, except all of that is mathematically impossible.

After watching him play the tiny instrument for a few minutes and knowing I was in love I decided to tell tell him be was very attractive in the chat box. He was playing a song and sung a line that was like, thank you Em for the complement. I nearly cried of happiness.

I few days after that, and I had watched all his videos, I started talking to him on twitter, he replied, I had anpther massive fan girl moment. Then to give me another fan girl cry of happiness he replied to my Facebook message. He has made me so happy.

This guy is so nice. He replies to everything that is said to him, it makes me so happy. Everyone that reads this should check out his Facebook, YouTube  Instagram and you now just because. I love this guy so much.

Thanks for reading xoxo

I'm not perfect.

I don't know if it's a thing every parent does, or if its just mine, but they want me to be perfect. I have average grades, normally and do try hard in school. They just expect me to have the best grades. They keep going on about my older brothers grades and it got to me. I had a science test and deliberately did badly.

I know it wasn't smart but I can't stand people or my family thinking I'm really smart, because I'm not. I don't want to have to live up to people's expectations, I just want to live up to my own. I got an E on that test. It made me laugh. I am now forced to attend extra science lessons and a phone call was made home.

I never understood how that was a punishment. It's a phone all home, I would be more annoyed by a detention. It's stupid.

Amazing Phil and Dan is not on fire

They must be the funniest people know to man kind. I love them so much, I even put some of their hilarious quotes on my bedroom wall. I know I'm a cool kid. I do love them and I think Phil is super hot, I would date him, he's just perfect. I always read things online about them being bi but to be honest it doesn't bother me. I mean I've had my fair share of bisexual experiences, some that I can remember better then others because of the intoxication. Incase you don't know who Phil and Dan are, here is a picture.

They are youtubers and they are super funny. My favourite one of their videos has to be the Christmas cookie making one. After I watched it, I had a stomach ache from laughing so hard. So anyways that's that. Bye

Silly things

Have you ever done anything stupid just for the sake of being stupid? I do it all the time and I have such a fun life, because I don't care about what people think. I know what it's like not having any confidence and it just wasn't the life for me. I love being the loud outgoing one in the group but people don't like me for it. I'm not bothered if people don't like me, it's their choice and if the don't like me, it's probably because I stated my opinion. 

 This was something silly me and my friend Millie did, when it was the cool thing to put pictures of your 6 packs on Facebook. We go picked on in school for it, but we didn't care. It was one of the funniest days of my life. I miss Millie, she moved away and I miss her, but that wasn't the point of this blog.

The point of this blog was to tell people to not get scared because although people act like they are a big part of your life, you can still do what you want in life, just don't get scared.

I hate people!

It's not every person I hate, just the really stupid ones, or the ones that are really annoying, or the ones that are horrible, or the ones that try and be someone they're not. Being 15 and in public school, I encounter them every day. I admit I have a problem and I lose my temper way to quickly but people need to learn to stop pissing me off.

So about three years ago, I was going through a very punk stage in my life and my favourite band happened to be slipknot. Don't know who they are? Google them. So I had a t shirt, but because I wore it in public I became and emo. It was bad for me, I didn't care about being called an emo, I just hated what it escalated in.

So because I listened to this band I cut myself... I didn't but I was told I did. Apparently I tried to kill myself every day because I was an 'attention whore' which was completely untrue. Worse then that, I was told that I murder animal and sacrifice them. I don't know what they thought an emo was, but I wasn't some weird Tribal thing.

I was bullied so bad, until I met my current group of friends, they were the same as me, rejected from every other social group and I love them. I had friends now and I learned to ignore the chaos until they got bored. If you ever get bullied, just ignore them, it takes a while, but they give up eventually.

Follow me on twitter @emmaallington97 and I will talk to you soon. Bye